Wednesday, July 21, 2010

don't u hate it when the latest you can sleep until is 1-2pm? I wake up at 12 only to force myself to sleep till 1 :(

A line my army friend said about a week ago floated into my mind: "it depends on how much you treasure the relationship and want to make it work." He had major problems in the first 6 months of his relationship, but they thrashed things out and managed to stay together till now; admirable indeed. So far the impression I get on my side is, it's not really worth treasuring, since solutions never even get a chance to be formed; or maybe the other party thinks it just can't be worked out. What do u think reader? Do you think that somewhere somehow things have been taken for granted, taken too lightly, or too seriously?

I hope this period of silence between us will kill all the love that was present. When that happens, I can be friends with her again, hopefully when school starts. I'm sure this is what she wants, because 1. She's afraid/tired of getting hurt again 2. She feels like she isn't the one for me and has self-doubts 3. She's tired and doesn't want to solve problems 4. She doesn't know how to face up to her family and friends. She once said that we should wait for a few years, for experience and wisdom to set in. I doubt feelings can last for that long; ok maybe I'm cynical, but seriously, realistically speaking, if we can break so easily, then a year or two is enough to forget about each other. Oh well, no point thinkin about it now, especially if nothing can move her, or if she gets so easily stressed out. The feeling's fading already anyway. Perhaps the only regret I have left is that of being misunderstood. I'll just see what the future has in store for me! :D