Monday, July 19, 2010

Things happen in a very strange way. As I was listenin to music, suddenly the quarrel with my friend popped into my mind. I thought about how he scolded me harshly, and I felt indignant that he still didn't see my point that a friendship is worth more than game performance. However, this indignation suddenly faded away as my mind zoomed in to one of the sentences he said. He told me that he was tired of reminding me to stop alt tabbing when in a game. I gave in and said that I was a noob. He replied that I was not, it was just that I did not bother to play properly. Now after the initial period of tension is past, I am able to see more clearly. When people quarrel, ego and selfishness tend to take over, that's why I try to remain as emotionally detached as possible to prevent that. Looking back, I suddenly realise that he was trying to improve me; rather, to help me improve myself in terms of overall responsibility. No doubt his tone was very harsh, but I suddenly felt like I forgave him totally, because his intention was good, and I was definitely in the wrong as well. It may seem superficial, but once you give your commitment to a team of 5 people, you must fulfill it to your fullest and play your part, to gain your friends' trust and respect. Lol... I really like such random bursts of enlightenment... I duno how else to describe it other than as a clearing of air.