Sunday, July 18, 2010

Quarreled with friend again... sianz. However, with each quarrel I'm learning more and more restraint and tolerance. I think soon I'll be able to totally give in. I wanna improve and become a better person!! After all, so what if we prove our point? Only sadness comes out of it. We were there for each other when we needed it. So what if I think my friend's ego and selfishness are obnoxious? So what if my friend thinks I can't be bothered to be serious at all times? The key lies in discerning which is more important: the bond, or the quarrel. An 8-year-long friendship withstands minor quarrels, and things were cool in a very short while after (honestly, to this day it still surprises me how fast we patch up. The only major break we had lasted a month, and that was some time ago, because we both decided to take a breather.) I've almost mastered the skill of giving in till everyone's cooled down then talking about it later lol. However, that skill is only useful against an aggressor, or in other words when someone else starts the quarrel. I still have yet to find a solution to my sensitive expectations. As for the insecurity, perhaps I need to be, as some horoscope sites have suggested, surrounded by progressive optimism? Oh well... I find it paradoxical that only the closest/best friends will quarrel and disagree on things. It seems people who don't know me well enough can't even come close to finding fault with me, and thus ironically I'm all the more clear which/who is more important.